How to start? I feel like my whirlpool of adventure is kinda stuck somehow. Like, I am holding back… Or maybe like I need something or someone to boost me. I’ve never been the type of person that asks for something. In example dependence. I don’t like depending or asking for something I could get myself. Yet, I feel like the time is coming for me to express what I feel and wait for a certain miracle.
I’ts kinda difficult to be sincere. I don’t like feeling like I owe gratitude. If I’m grateful it’ll be natural. But, It’s all spinning under me and I can’t seem to find what’s giving me a certain hold up. What could it be? In my experience flowing has been an enjoyment and now it’s somewhat different and it can’t be that way.
I mean it’s like Sinbad dropping through whirlpools. I have nothing else. Yet, I don’t have the knowledge or the experience to understand what’s holding me back. I have sometimes thought of it as a demon, but, what would a demon be in this. I mean we are all different and individual to have the same empathy towards things or everything to put it In does terms. So what is it? -.-
Does wishing help? or should I expect a miracle?